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Hey! What's your opinion on the Baltics?
hii. I think they're pretty cool
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the fish that keeps appearing all over my recommended only that he's out of jail and happy
#✁ | freshly decorated | ✃#roblox#sebastian pressure#sebastian solace#roblox pressure#pressure#pressure sebastian#the way I just copy and pasted these tags because I really don't know what tags he would use#he makes me so mad I literally downloaded roblox because I was curious of him#AND I GOT THE WOMP WOMP LINE?????? I WAS SO LIKE. never speak to me again#also I've been only drawing him for a week it's driving me insane get him OUT#it's so bad getting muses because then suddenly you can ONLY draw the muse I hate this stupid fish#(loving)#also random but#I like to think that if he did manage to escape the blacksite#the idea where like#he can only live in like more rural areas (probably living with someone to help him um#get food#domestic life kinda thing#but like I just think like being cozy. drinking something hot. being next to the fireplace to be warm#warmth being something that he lost a long time ago and it feeling so nice that he can feel it with someone he loves#or cares idk#i need to shut up I WILL LITERALLY JUST SUDDENLY WRITE A FANFIC IN THE TAGS IF I CONTINUE ANY LONGER T_T
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Cure Pumpkin design I did back in December with t-shirts, etc. in mind! mostly to make a shirt for @zukoromantic
#ai's random art#hirogaru sky precure#precure#pretty cure#hirogaru sky pretty cure#battamonda#cure pumpkin#shout-out to Spin for reminding me to post#if I make more designs to go with it I might put it up as stickers or smth like that#speedran the whole thing in like two days and the file was so heavy my laptop almost crashed several times jssjjs#one of the guys working at the shop where I printed the shirt recognized him immediately and I've never been so proud in my life XD#the colors are kinda meh bc it's made with printing in mind and I like to think they look better there jsjsjs
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Child me would be so happy if they saw who I am today- That's not something I would've ever thought I would say, but here I am. It's kind of surreal, if I'm being honest.
That poor kid went through so much pain and suffering, but I never gave up. I have my system to thank for my safety, my ability to bounce back. I am fractured but whole- broken but beautiful.
If only he could see all the good that has come into our life. Yes, I live with the same abusive family, but there is so much good.
I finally got the accommodations I always needed, I can finally say I have friends who care about me and understand me, and I can even say that the suicidal ideation I've dealt with my whole life is not an issue- and so much more that I'm grateful for. Itty Bitty Bugz would be amazed.
I've fought tooth and nail to get here. I've fought so much I scratched myself in the process, but gods be damned I am here. I am alive and breathing, surviving but thriving.
Things will never be the same- not that there ever was a moment of my life not colored with trauma- but I will always be resilient. I will always fight for my life, even if it's far from perfect.
Those who hurt me in the past- they tormented me, made every waking moment of my life hell, yet somehow, I find it in my heart to forgive them. Forgiveness not for them, but me, so I may let go of the past and step into the future- a happy future.
Many of them can only see me in their dreams at this point, but I will never forget them and the pain they cause me. Yet, despite everything they did to me, I came out on top.
Child me would be so happy. There is hope.
#random thoughts#just kinda rambling#I just the other day had a moment of noticeable healing- I realized I hadn't had suicidal thoughts in months. That's huge for me#I've been suicidal as far back as I can remember- I never wanted to live. I wanted the pain to stop.#the pain doesn't stop- not while I still live with my family- but I can cope. I have been coping.#I will say tho- My therapist has been amazing for all of this. I think having a specialist for DID made everything click#It does suck knowing that there was never not a moment of my life where I wasn't being traumatized#Those memories came back to me. But ykno what? It's just a part of my story#I don't think I would wish for my life to have gone differently. as fucked as that sounds.#I just wouldn't be the person I am today had I not gone through what I did. And I'm pretty proud of the person I see in the mirror#Someone recently told me I was extremely resilient and I'm just like- I've had to be but I love that I am#WELL... anyways#enough rambling#just my own thoughts about my healing#Idk if this needs any tws but put an ask in my anons if it does#the bugz speak
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I've got a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. mostly to discuss if the new sleep medication is working. it is.. not? I don't know. it sorta makes me stay asleep better but tbh that only really means it's even more impossible to wake up when I need to.
idk at this point I'm getting close to just saying you know what? thank you for trying to help, mr. nice old psychiatrist guy, but let's just give up! who needs sleep anyway (me, like 12-16 hours a day). I'm just not gonna do it anymore! that sounds more doable than ever figuring out how to sleep normally!!
#literally like. everything is kinda fucked up and everything hurts a lot of the time and everything just feels wrong in my stupid body#but not being able to sleep and also being tired all of the time and sleeping so much is so so so shitty#like I can't fall asleep when I want to and I can't stay awake when I need to#it fucking sucks#also my so called sleep schedule ALWAYS goes back to sleeping at like 5 or 6 am no matter how much I try to go to bed earlier#it never ever lasts#also it's really funny (haha sooooo hilarious) when people talk about sleep hygiene. as if it actually does/changes anything?? apparently it#does for normal people??#literally nothing ever helps (at least not more than a few random unpredictable times)#also. the toddler upstairs has been crying every morning starting around 5am. for an hour.#which is juuust perfect for helping me sleep. 😭😭😭 but anyway I've got Thursday Murder Club to listen to. and also my husband snoring in#his room next to mine lol. this feels like some kind of really mean joke 🙃#ALSO also. I have to get up in 3 hours for the appointment........ every damn time I'm like oof this is bad I need to get a later#appointment next time! and then I immediately forget.#personal
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I was drawing at my art class while chatting with my teacher and suddenly a very important question rose in my mind:
If Stephanie Mayers wasn't racist, would black vampires shine and sparkle like graphite powder/dust?
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#twilight#stephanie mayers#random thoughs coming to my mind lololol#honestly I've NEVER watched nor read Twilight#I only watched silly movie analysis lololololol#I said this outloud and my teacher just BURSTED with laughter#idk lololol#twilight racism??????? yeah ofc that woman is crazy#not jk rowling type but still bad lolol#shiny black vampires#it would've been kinda cool honestly#dark shades and shiny stuff is just so pretty#tumblr ramble
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MERRY KAGAMINEMAS i painted this in a hurry thinking their birthday was. the 26th somehow
this is my ice fog redesign and my snowman rin module named snow drop :>
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#vocaloid#vocasynth#kagamine len#kagamine rin#piapro characters#project mirai#project diva#fanart#colored#2023#let me tell u the first time i tried to actually start this last week#my brain was so resistant to it i had a mental breakdown#so i'm really happy i managed it in the end ; w ;!!!!#i've been a kagaminehead for years and years but never managed to do bday art bc i'm terrible with timed art#but i wanted to try this year!!#either way these designs r fun i just kinda doodled random expressions when i designed them but they're my hcs now#ice fog is smiling but has a cold interior like he's hard to get close to#while snow drop has a cold exterior but is truly a softie#so outwardly they're like the opposite of my usual rin and len hcs... ogh module hcs are so fun
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I am the kind of person who needs to be understood thoroughly and cannot stand a misinterpretation of my intentions or words. So I am BITING on the cage of my enclosure over that stupid session 7 post
#I LIKED THE EPISODE GUYS#GEM WAS A GOOD CHOICE#I NEVER WATCHED HER POV SO I DIDNT REALIZE JUST HOW MANY HEARTS SHE LOSF#IT IS TECHNICALLY A BOOGEYMAN THING (Tho the name is more of a reference lets be honest here)#STILL THINK IT COULD HAVE BEEN COOL AS MARTYN#BUT UR RIGHT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN RISKY#Tbh I've just been disappointed by the lack of damage done by reds so far#but that may be about the reds we have rather than the fault of red tasks#sorry mumbo lizzie and jimmy akdhfkfk#AND YES I KNOW ALL THE TASKS ARE FORCED#I DIDN'T CARE I JUST SAID I GET WHY IT WOULD BOTHER SOMEONE CUZ IT SEEMS KINDA RANDOM#BUT THE TASKS HAVE BEEN BUILDING IN INTENSITY FOR YELLOWS/REDS#I LIKED THE EPISODE GUYS I JUST NOTICED SOME THINGS#okay I'm done#I'm never talking abt that post again#secret life#smooziespeaks
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#Just read with my own two eyes the take that sskk dating would be illegal in Japan and like.#sorry if this sounds rude but can Twitter please start discourse over it I want to witness it so bad aksvdbksbdjsnsvsksvska#I've been giggling for the last five minutes this. unironically made my day this concept is so so funny I'm ecstatic#Like. I don't even know where to begin I can't stop laughing. But someone thinking that Akutagawa who's like.#a notorious mafioso and serial killer with a reasonably high body count. Would think twice about the legality of dating someone–#two (2) years younger than him???? Like THAT was the issue with dating Atsushi????????I'm hysterical#But even beyond that... I think it kinda speaks of what internet culture become–#that people started thinking dating someone two years younger than you is illegal. wtf.#It is... Guys nobody needs to hear this- except apparently someone does? But dating is never illegal. Having sex with a minor is.#There's like. quite a difference akdbfbskbdjsksbdksbdks#I'm trying so so hard to be polite about this but there's an inner beast inside me that can't help but laugh akdbdjsbsksbsk#I'm sorry there IS some kind of social commentary that could be done here but right now I'm just too busy laughing#And I mean this with no malice seriously!! Best thing I've read all week#Anyways to that person. I love you. Please learn the law. Never change#random rambles
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Hey!! This is for the film ask ,animation addition!! Because I love cartoons and these films, I feel are a bit underrated so I’m wondering if you seen them and what your thoughts were
Coraline
Hotel Transylvania
Monster House
Wendell & Wild
Monsters inc
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Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs
Robots
Sry this is a lot 😭 but I absolutely love hearing your thoughts on movies
Hey! Don't apologise, anon, I love getting asked about movies, haha, so thank you, and thank you for your lovely words! 😊
Coraline
never seen | want to see | the worst | bad | whatever | not my thing | good | great | favorite | masterpiece
Definitely an iconic work in both stop motion and in children's horror. I've been thinking quite a lot recently about how so many fairytales and folklore stories that were historically aimed at children shared tropes and tones with horror. That link is explored amazingly well in the documentary Woodlands Dark and Days Bewitched, which I highly recommend, but I do love that there are these genre staples still in children's storytelling that brings that back to the fore. Coraline (along with a few of the other movies you've asked about) is definitely one of them, and I think is one of the ones that does it the best. Just a really great film.
Hotel Transylvania
never seen | want to see | the worst | bad | whatever | not my thing | good | great | favorite | masterpiece
I haven't seen this one, but I grew up with a lot of the director's other work (particularly The Powerpuff GIrls and Samurai Jack), so it's been on my list for a while. Now that my nephews are in the target demographic for it too, I should definitely try and watch it with them!
Monster House
never seen | want to see | the worst | bad | whatever | not my thing | good | great | favorite | masterpiece
I've heard a lot of good things about this one, but for some reason, I've just never gotten around to it.
Wendell & Wild
never seen | want to see | the worst | bad | whatever | not my thing | good | great | favorite | masterpiece
You've picked so many movies I've never seen, anon! That's truly a feat these days, haha. I've been really keen to see this one since it came out though. It's such a good cast, and Henry Selick is a giant among men when it comes to animation directors. Coraline and Nightmare Before Christmas are obviously iconic, but I'm very partial to James and the Giant Peach too!
Monsters Inc
never seen | want to see | the worst | bad | whatever | not my thing | good | great | favorite | masterpiece
Easily one of Pixar's best. A lot of this works due to the worldbuilding and voicework chemistry between John Goodman and Billy Crystal, but the script is really strong too and that sequence with the doors is so original and innovative.
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never seen | want to see | the worst | bad | whatever | not my thing | good | great | favorite | masterpiece
Oh man, I remember seeing this when it came out, but I don't think I remember much about it beyond having watched it, so I don't really want to rate it, haha. Mmm, I'm pretty sure I liked it? Might be one to rewatch though.
Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs
never seen | want to see | the worst | bad | whatever | not my thing | good | great | favorite | masterpiece
I'm going to say never seen, because I haven't watched it in full, but I worked in a kids clothing store for three years when I was at university, and we had a little nook in the back of the store where kids could sit and watch movies. Head office would get us one (1) new movie a year, and this was the third one we got, so there are certain scenes I could probably recite, despite having never watched it, haha.
Robots
never seen | want to see | the worst | bad | whatever | not my thing | good | great | favorite | masterpiece
Imperfect, but underrated! It's a shame that Blue Sky Studios went so downhill so fast, because their first few releases - particularly Ice Age, Robots and Dr. Seuss' Horton Hears a Who! - all suggested real promise and an interesting change in tone / pace compared to other animation houses at the time. Alas - they were reduced too quickly to sequels even before Disney shuttered them.
Ask me about movies
#thanks again!#these are fun#my nephews are at SUCH a fun age to watch movies with too so i've been watching quite a lot of kids films again lately#the 8yo is completely obsessed with nimona#last time i was looking after them he made us watch it five times in three days lol#we also watched the og star wars last time i had them too#they were sliiiightly too young for it still i think#but it was fun#they asked twelve million questions and kinda knew the characters already from the lego versions#it was so funny though#because they loved the robots but could never remember the right letter/number combos for r2d2 or c3po#so the random combos you'd get when they asked questions about them left us all tongue tied lmao#'what's p924 doing now?'#'where'd g2b2 go?'#anyway#thank you again haha#movies#film asks#movie ask game#welcome to my ama
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current level of boredom while being mildly poorly (=not poorly enough to just lie down doing nothing but poorly enough to not have the energy to do anything thought-consuming): tagging all my shippy asks/posts ✨💅
ps. if anyone knows how to use the mass post editor to actually mass-edit tags in a convenient way I'd appreciate the help 🙏 like, idk if it's even possible to find all the posts I have tagged as x and edit the tags of all those posts at once? 🤔 so far I only know you can find tagged posts on your own blog by adding /tagged/x at the end of your url and then editing the tags manually one post at a time 🥲
#all these years on the hellsite and i still haven't figured out how to use the mass post editor for anything useful 💀#anywayyy literally no one cares but the tags i've been using so far are:#olliallu ollixalluxjoel joonasxniko joelxolli joonasxolli#i also have previously tagged some random posts as joeleksi#yes it's very inconsistent but i had already tagged posts as olliallu but then i realised joonasniko looks kinda dumb 😪#so joonasxniko it is i guess 😐 funnily enough olliallu looks alright?? but i kinda also want to start using ollixallu from now on#because now it just bothers me so much that one of them is diffferent in style 😭😂😭#i think i've tagged shippy posts with them as joonas/niko before but i'm gonna have to change that 😑#since the / does not work that well in tagging ugh#i just started so i've only managed to tag about a fraction of the asks 💀#man i wish i had had a proper tagging system for asks from the beginning#i never saw the point and idk if there's any point to tagging them afterwards either but ehh i can't write fic so what else should i do#also idk how much sense any of those posts make ''out of context'' but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ maybe at some point this might come in handy#(also also yes i can't write fic i don't have the energy to concentrate and anyway i'll probably need to start it all over again 😩)
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every so often i get reminded of when a bunch of style shippers who hated me tried to get back @ me by like. constantly calling me a cuck and I think they were implying i was??? and to this day i cannot for the life of me figure out how they came to that conclusion like,, I had made a cuck joke @ least once about Kyle bc Gerald is canonically one. so. I mean maybe it's that but??? IDK it wouldn't even bother me but sometimes I really feel like it's because I'm openly polyamorous and THAT is what icks me, ngl. Like, not on some deep internal level, but it just kinda disgusts me because it felt like they just sort of. Came to that conclusion based on that??
Idk, it always makes me wonder. Anyway it's weird to call poly ppl cucks. as a general maybe don't do that unless they 100% are
#like i don't rly care about cuck as an insult it's just some kink and I'VE used it as one bc it's funny#and it never rly bothered me UNTIL someone pointed out that it sorta feels. targetted on my sexuality#and now i can't rly. unsee it like. DAMN they're kinda right#it comes off so much to me as them just sort of passively assuming 'oh well you made a cuck joke. oh well ur poly. this tracks as cuck'#and that i think is what bothers me. the thing is i don't think these ppl even were anti poly i just think they had something internalized#but that kinda grosses me out more#anyway. this is random i just have been thinking about it#me talking#kinda my first “oh ppl actually will be shitty to me bc i'm polyamorous" moment so it throws me off on occasion
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i almost never write because i can't focus for a long periodt of time but i got hit by inspiration to write abt one of my characters
this made me appreciate writers even more this is probably one of the few times i actually put my whole attention in only one thing
#I draw more than i write because i usually need noise to work but I can't really write with noise or o won't focus at all#+ drawing allows me to multitask sometimes#i've never been this focused in one of my writings before it feels kinda weird to not being focused on more than one thing#random ass post technically
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I really wish there's be more apps doing, like, text-based adventures or the sorts. I've been playing around with an AI app thing that kinda promises to offer that infintitely bc AI, but that one is so very random it's difficult to consider that an actual adventure when the scene and everything changes so often. There's visual-novels a few apps which is fine, there are some I quite like(d) when I play(ed) them, but I just wish there'd be more options.
If AI in general does keep going as it is, though, maybe there'll be more apps like the one I tried eventually and I'll maybe perhaps find something that doesn't quite do it all so randomly.
#✫ Out of Clurblopf ✫ | OOC#and yes yes I know ai isn't always good or never or sth it's just still kinda fun to play around with#and I mean it's just to keep myself entertained when I'm bored; is there harm in that?#i've tried before to create something superheroy for example; in that ai app I've been playing around with#and it throws the fact around so randomly at times it's really confusing and not mkaing sense and like#I just wish there's be an app doing it better or sth; idk#also that app I'm using offers to pay for other ai models too so maybe it's just my refusal to pay to make it too random I wouldn't know
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I love how 'bald' as an option actually makes sense in this one. XD
And reading the comments it looks like there's gonna be a lot of older women having bright funky hair colours when the next couple of generations hit this age, and I love it!
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#I'm still not sure how I'll feel about it when it goes past a few strands that are kinda like glitter#I've never been able to dye my hair fun bright colours because I have long hair and don't want to deal with the regrowth#and the only semi permanents that are visible in my dark hair are purple and black and I did that once and it was boring and short-lived#so part of me is keen to get to that stage and be the 50 year old with fun coloured hair#but i will be sad to lose my natural hair colour - i quite like it#and i don't know how my curl pattern will change when it's more white hairs than brown#I expect there will be fake natural hair colours in the mix too over time#Hmmm... I wonder what the workplace will think of a woman in her 50s with long bright blue hair?#I'm also uncertain if I'll keep it long.#I tried is mid length a while back and it was kinda meh#and I tried layering during the pandemic#but it just makes my hair look scraggly#and I've only just finally grown it out this year#I've never particularly loved a lot of things about my appearance#but i do like my hair#so it'll be an adjustment i think#hair#going grey#tumblr polls#random#not fandom
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making myself stressed to the point of losing sleep over irrational catastrophizing superstitious thoughts but making sure to do the cuckoo finger gesture at the camera so the viewers know i know how ridiculous i'm being
#like i've never been superstitious before but now i'm like but i gotta be careful. just in case#sorry chat pretend this is just a sillypost#[stan voice] im kinda going through some things#s0dabeach talks#vent#does this even count as a vent#whatever i should start tagging this type of stuff differently from my other random rambles anyway
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